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im confused abt zack D:
Friday, December 18, 2009 @ 2:44 PM see th title up there ? yeahh , im confused ! confused abt my life . and .. im confused abt Zack .. gosh , he is like , weird . not as in weird like some mental people like tht . th way he treats me is so diff . i just cnt stand it . i wna cry . im just so upset . he ditch me two fucking times . and he fuckingly didnt tell me he was 15 ?! he expect me to knw ?! and i found out via his friends ? Damn it . idk whts hppning . its so complicated . i really do love him yet , there is a part of me tht hates him . Gosh ! im feeling a little bit regretting being with him but ... *cries* urgh . i just dont knw ! i really do love him but the way he treats me is like as if , he is using me , playing with me . im like tissue paper . when he needs me , he uses me . but when he dont need me , he'll totally ignore me . *cries badly* i dont wna be played . i really have a fragile heart . im cnt sleep thinking abt this . he thinks , everytime he do a mistake , he can get away with it by kissing me . -.- gosh , i cnt believe i just said tht . Hah . im still angry abt it but i dont want him to knw , i love him , i wna be with him . i seriously feel like im being played by him . *cries even badly* i even suspects tht he dont even love me . i dont even wna meet or chat with him . seriously but i dont wna him to think tht im avoiding him or someth . he nvr do wht he promise . whenever i sms him , he'll reply me late or will NOT even reply me back . when he call me , but i nvr ans cause im busy then when i wna call him back , he'll end th call ? wtf siahh . he promised to sms me , but he nvr does tht . i'll be th one smsing him . i fell like i wna break with him but i dont wna casue i love him , i really do . im confused . these pass few days , he is making me feel pissed off . i feel so uneasy abt him . i feel tht he is keeping secrets with me , like wtf kan ?! *cries even even badly*even Julia says tht he mayb playing with me , take me as a fucking joke ! damn it la siyal . i wna tell him wht i feel abt him but i dont wna . i really love him . i dont wna break with him . damn it ! im crying cause of him -.- yet again . tsk . if possible , someone , help me tell him abt this but i seriosuly , i swear , i really love him and i dont wna break with him . i dont wna break with him as long as i live . *a tear ran down my damp cheek* Labels: hurt. |