Lies.

hey... guess whattt ?! i nvr sleep for th whole night yrstrdy ! cool or what? sumpah im lame -.-' i was in a fucked up mood just now in sch. sorry people :( i was in no mood attittude. butbutbut thanks to dionne for cheering me up and i sad again when Jun Ming played th piano which made me thinkk abt my life. so probably, th whole day, i put up a FAKE SMILE maybe it was obvious to my friends. then julia, in th mrng, i told julia wht hppn as i couldnt take it. then she gave me solutions... yeahhh, right, "SOLUTIONS" -.-' then, blah3. JiaJun cheered me up :) and oliver too. thanks guys. i really wanted to vry but i did not. ohya, THT GUY smsed me but i didnt rply as i was busy crying ~.~ swollen eyes suckkks +.+ history test was QUITE simple for me as i studied with swollen eyes and tears running down my cheeks :P lolol :x my life practically sucks. camp in like 1 day time, campcraft competition in 2-3weeks time, common test drawing nearer ~ seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee how stress i am D: and thanks to THT GUY for adding to my misery. my parents are being fucked up with me for no reason. like wth sia. idk why la but this year, they always been fucked up which pisses me off ! damn. hais. sucksucksucksucksuck. lols. then i had APC, went to hall, joked arnd with julia and dionne, qian wen was pissing dionne off ~ wth-.- then went vista with julia, dionne, cherry but then yi zong and jiajun at th swing there so me and julia went there while dionne and cherry went to meet wesley and went home respectively. then me and julia push jiajun and yizong. funny seyhh! should have recorded it all down. then syah, hidir and th othrs came. urgh. totally spoilt my mood-.- then went vista, saw deena, iffah blah, brought bubble tea, otw back to sch, terserempak dengan syah and th othrs. wahhpiang ehhkk ! annonying la korg. tkd kejer kepe nk kacau aku?! i nvr kacau uu all anymore but korg tetap nk kacau aku tu pehal?! fed up siyol! :@ then played at th swing with julia for awhile, told julia wht i felt then she gave me so called "pet-talks" haha ;D thanks babe ^^ then went npcc, did ntg cause it was th sec3s training. phew. then saw marcus chow. haha, we keep staring at each othr ~ :P then i went to julia at canteen, saw marcus chow, he look at me and then i friendly mahh, i said "hi marcus!" then i smile at him. he look at me then smile and said "hey!" then done. then i talk to julia then i was bored and asked marcus whts his class blah3. then he rply me blah3 then done, i went back to npcc, did ntg, yet again. BUT! shekh accompanied me :] thank you staff ^^ hees. th seniors, tsk. they always wanna disturb me seyh. fed up uhr then one of them, wanted to kick a ball towards me but luckily got fence to "protect" me (: lolololol ;B then aftr npcc, meet julia, afza, atiqah and fitri, we sang our hearts out then me and julia went home first. blah3. i mandi, makan, blah3, did my hwks then study math for awhile as i have math test tmr +.+ lapr uhr seyyh D: okayy, i wanna eat la but before tht, i wanna say some things :)

i miss tht guy badly. i miss his hugs, i miss him pinching my cheeks, i miss him tucking my fringe behind my ear whenever it cover my eyes, i miss his cute voice, i miss on th phone with him, i miss pinching his cheeks, i miss leaning on him, i miss him wrapping his arm arnd me. i miss him smsing him. i miss him calling me dear, bie, baby, syg. i miss argueing with him. i miss hugging him. i miss him kissing my forehead. i miss him holding my hand. i miss him complimenting me. i miss him singing to me. i miss him meeting me secretly. i miss him ditching his frineds just to meet me. i miss him understand everything tht i says even when im talking crapxz. i miss him laughing with me when we were watching some really stupid things. i miss him taking pictures with me. i miss him talking horny stuffs with me. i miss him gossiping abt othr people with me. i miss critisizing zack with him. i miss everything abt him. i just miss him. i want it all back to nrml. with me meeting him. i wanna do wht i've just wrote down with him. i just wanna be with him really badly. i really miss him. ohgahhh, i cnt help but crycrycrycrycry and cry. weird huh? it really hurts to lose someone you really love, care abt most be sepereted from you. i miss him more and more each day. i really cnt help but miss him. i really wanna meet him and i really wish everything will be back to nrml.

i was sad whe during APC, dionne wrote Juju `Keai love (insertnamehere) . i cried but it wasnt obvious :)

i miss you bieeeeeeeeeee badly :'(