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Profile  ♥ JUJU SUPERGIRL! \M/ Hey hey. Siti Julaiha. 24011996, do your math. i'm into drama and dance. i'm not your typical teenager who's life is so perfect. i'm just a girl with a heart that pretends to be ok when actually i'm not. -That's me (: Facebook | Twitter | Photobucket | Youtube
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hurt deep :'(
Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 12:46 PM HEY ! sorry long time nvr update. been busy, stressed up and othrs. sch was okayy excpt fo some rumors arnd here there and EVERYWHERE which pisses me off like crazy and made me cry nonstop. but anyw, idk wht else to say la. i'll be busy with my studies, cca as im in th campraft competition -.-' gahh, i is tk suke seyyh D: so jyeahh, at night, i've been crying and crying and crying. my eyes were swollen. then just now mdrsh, kecoh? i guess, then i had a talk with zahidah, i told her EVERYTHING tht has been happening to me. i told her th whole truft, she saw th pictures. she said it was cute, when she said tht, i wnated to cry but i restrained myself. alot of things has been happening in my life. i nvr expect my 2010 to be like this. especially just a few days aftr i turned FOURTEEN! it sucks okayy?! then, aftr i told zahidah th truft abt it all; abt me, him and him and th othrs, I FUCKINGLY CRIED! i knw, it was alr over but i cnt accpt tht fact... i was really sad. i cried nonstop aftr mdrsh. :'( tmr when i go to sch, i'll have SWOLLEN EYES ;( im so sad. maybe too sad. i just cnt accpt tht FUCKING fact! i cnt delete those pictures, i cnt even delete you in facebook, i cnt EVEN block you in MSN neither can i DELETE YOUR CONTACT! am i dumb or wht? people been tell me tht "we need to sacrifice our love fo our loved one" FUCK ! i willl nvr be able to accpt tht la siyal! tsk. call me naive abt it but i seriously dont care. but, its for our best... we'll not be contacting each othr anymore... it really is gna hurt me really deep. too deep... fuckfuckfuckfuck! STOP CRYING JULAIHA! i cnt help but cry. i need someone to hug, but no one is here to let me hug them. im really hurt. i cnt bear this. i'll rather die than lose contact with you. seriously. i really feel like cutting my wrist now, or rather, kill myself now. im really gonna miss you badly. :'( i hate tht guy who made us into this. i hate him to th max! i hate tht guy! why are you sucha hypocrite you dumbass gay?! cnt you at least let me be happy? or at least, tht friend of yours ? ehk! come on la ehyy! tht day you meet me with tht othr guy? wanna make me jealous fo wht?! please la! grow up dumb freak! you think you so good? fine la, i knw you are popular among girls but do i fuck care biatch?! tsk. just accpt th fact tht we are over on th 14 Jan 2010 and we'll nvr be together again! and i'll nvr ever have feelings for you again! its your pasal ar if you wanna still like me or not cause i fuckingly dont care la gay! -.-' i really hate you fo making me lose it all with him! nabeyhnabeyhnabeyh! fuck off la siyal. i dont ever wanna see or talk to you anymore!!!!! ihate you ! :@ i knw, its best for us. to stop contacting Labels: hurt |